Thursday, August 7, 2014

On Anxiety & Reservations

It should be an exciting time for me right now, it is the Summer and I will be starting college in the Fall. This Summer has been fun, but mostly stressful. I would have liked to have a real job by now. I sent in about a hundred and fifty job applications, some to the same company, but different locations; I have sent in applications to different companies and waiting to hear back, but I never do. I would have liked to be moving to Florida in September, but now it looks like January for Florida. I just feel anxious and reserved about everything now-a-days. I am finding myself wanting to put things off for the next day. This anxiety and stress is taking a toll on my body and in my skin. It can be an ugly mess at times. 
But, I have found ways to supplament happiness through the anxiety. It really is not as bad as I am making it sound, but when the anxiety is bad, I just talk it through with family and everything feels better after that. Today, I went to go register for classes at the local community college. I have decided to do a term here since I am staying until January. Going to the college actually calmed my nerves just a bit. I am sure I will find my way around there in no time. On Tuesday, I will take a math test to help me decide which math to take, and I assuming it will be basic math. Just knowing it will all be taken care of on Tuesday helps me feel a little better. 
The thing about the job, I need a job in order to save money so that I can indeed move to Florida. I know I can do it, but I still get very anxious. I wish a great opportunity would just fall in my lap because frankly, I am exhausted of hunting! I spent all of the first half of Summer looking, applying, and stressing out. But I just need to go through the process again, and take what I can get. Everything will be ok. Everything will be ok. I don't know why I freak myself out, I just need to create a plan, and check things off to feel accomplished. 
To make this post not so dreary and drab, I wanted to show off my simple outfit for today. Just something to slip in, go to the community college, and get some information on registering for classes. Also, my bag from Sole Society arrived today and I am so in love with it! I am excited to do a style post with it! Now, just because I am showing off an outfit, this is not an official style post. I just threw on my Windsor gray maxi skirt, Papaya coral shirt, magnetic bracelet, and Florida-Style Birkenstocks. People were giving me glances during the outing. I don't know if it was because the liked my outfit, or if I am a narcissist... Nah that's not it. 
Everything will turn out ok. Encouraging words are always welcome! Have a happy Thursday! 

6 comments:

  1. I think it is amazing how persistent you have been with your job search!! It sure is crazy how hard it is for young adults to find work these days, but you are being so proactive about it I imagine you will find a good opportunity soon! Community College will be great, it is a good place to start and get prerequisites out of the way, plus maybe the career center can help you with your job search or find you work on campus. :) Love the outfit, especially the Birkenstocks, I am in love with their Boston Clogs and all of their sandals! :)

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    1. Thank you for the encouraging words, April! I am sure I will find something. Yes! Birkenstocks are super fun!

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  2. Hi, Courtney! I found you via Casey Wiegand's link up - I'm a junior in college who's getting ready to head back to Texas for school, and just wanted to say hang in there! It's definitely incredibly stressful trying to get ready for college and I can 100% sympathize about job hunting. It really stinks. But! I've found God always surprises me with a wonderful opportunity when I least expect it and when things seem without hope. So keep praying and know that you're growing through this experience in patience, if nothing else. :) Best of luck, girlie!

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    1. Thank you so much, Grace! I need to remember that God is always on my side, and I just need to trust in him whatever he puts in my path. Thank you for the encouraging words! You are so sweet! Thanks for stopping by :)

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  3. Where did you get your sandals they are so cute!!

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    1. They are Birkenstocks :) Aren't they darling?

      Courtney xoxo

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