This week I have been obsessed with many things, more mature than I am.... not completely though. When I am older, I want to have a baby. Of course, any girl, almost every girl wants to have a baby at some point in their life. Obviously not now, but I find it beautiful. Also this week, I have been obsessed with nature, the natural things. Natural ways to wash your face, natural ways to clean your house. Then I discovered I have some bohemian soul in me. I told my family this, and my dad was worried that I was going to start to not shave... never dad. I am going to shave, I'm not going to be THAT bohemian. I just like their way of life, their culture. Baby slings, homemade, gardening. I don't have to be bohemian to do that, but I find the bohemian life style to be very beautiful, in touch with nature, not religiously of course, but enough to have a beautiful, healthy life. You may be picturing me wearing a long patterned skirt, a head band in my hair made from leaves and daisies and a baby in a cloth sling. I will look like that sometimes, but I will also be wearing jeans, and scarves, and cute clothes because I am a girl, I like those things. I like them too much, because I am a girl and I do love shopping so much, clothes shopping to be exact. That life style is so gorgeous to me. When I am older, I want to grow my own produce, and eat organic meat (I do now, but I want to get it from another source). I want to maybe have a few chickens so that we can eat them, or have a farm close by and buy a chicken to slaughter. This sounds brutal, but fresh-off-the-farm chicken is the best.
Sometimes I think to myself, 'Courtney, why do you think about the future so much?', I answer myself (Not out loud, inside. I'm not crazy), 'My mind is too fast for my body. My body can't catch up fast enough. I am stuck in a 16 year old's body.' I am 16, but I feel older. My parents say that I am very mature, mature than some girls, a lot of girls.... and I am not interested in boys (I mean, yes, they can be cute, and handsome), I am talking about high school boys. Most high school boys are immature as well. I'll date later when I meet the perfect guy.
Don't get me wrong... I do think about the now. I think about what kind of car I want to get (a mini toyota tacoma in gray.) and I think about my grades, my friends, I think about what I am going to blog about. I think about things I want, or want to do. I think I have a very fulfilling life. I don't get jealous seeing other couples, I am happy for them and happy for me because I get to witness the cute things they do. I don't sit there and watch them, I just pass by them in the halls and I notice a hand-hold, or a little kiss. Or just how they talk to each other. Now.... when I am walking down the hall, in a hurry, and a couple comes together and starts kissing in the hallway, full on making out, I don't like that.
There is this blog that I found this morning, I am excited to read more in depth. I have only read three blog posts, but their blog is beautiful. They are a young couple, with a new baby, and they are photographers and bloggers. They take the most beautiful pictures and as an amateur photographer myself, I find such beauty in their pictures. They inspire me, and they have given me ideas on different ways to shoot. Problem for me is, I don't have a professional camera. I have a little 10 megapixel Sony digital camera. I need a new camera. I will get one later on. I still have a lot of birthdays left, and Christmases. I don't need one right now, but I will need one later, so I will get one later. Anyway, this couple take beautiful pictures, and I found a sampling of their photography on Pinterest, I had to see more of their pictures, so I went onto their Flickr photostream. Mexico Rosel's Photo Stream on Flickr . Such gorgeous photos. I was looking at some last night, inspired for when I dabble in photography, and excited for when I can be in pictures like that. I then found their blog this morning. I was so excited! I was trying to find their blog last night, but then it got to be 1:00 in the morning, and I was sleepy, so I waited and found it this morning. The Road Is Home . Like I said before, I have only read three blog posts, but they have such beautiful pictures and I can't wait to read more.
Ever since I started blogging, I have created this quote: "Inspire, and be inspired." It means, Inspire other people, but don't be afraid to be inspired by others. I tell myself that every day, I was never afraid to be inspired by other people, but that is my motto now. I love inspiring people to create a blog, I love inspiring people with my recipes (that I was inspired to make by pinterest, or other bloggers) and being inspired is such a wonderful feeling too because then I get a rush of ideas for projects and recipes, clothes and crafts. The point of this post was kind of just sporadic, and out of the ordinary. I had to get my thoughts down, and what better way to do it then to blog about it. I have been saying on a few past posts that I need to start using my blog as my diary, but not over load it with secrets because this is still public. I was going to wait to blog my thoughts, but I decided to do it 'Before I Forget...' and that is why this post is titled: 'Before I Forget...". Hope you enjoyed reading my inner thoughts. It was nice to get them out. Anyway, lots more blog posts I need to catch up on. My blog is (hopefully) going to be hoppin' today. :)